I'm Back You Tricks!

So the reason for deleating my other blogspot was due to the fact that I had a semi stalker...si si...semi stalker real talk. Soooo I'm back with updates on my moody ass self, etc, etc, etc tricks.

For some reason I have the thoughts of relationships on my head. I always get why are you so mean like all the damn time. Lemme say that, I believe that Im just being real. Im not tryna have my dude on some emotional female type hype, nor think its just about him. I will be quick to put him out, which I have done over the period of my relationships. I cant stand a dude that claims he's this manlyness, when he's on some other typeness. I don't do that. That's why Im mean, because of the fact that for some reason that's who I attract. Now I will not say I haven't met good dudes over the years, because I have...That line is very slim I must say...But I don't really like relationships, because of the get to know you phrase (fakeassness stage) or the fact that a dude must think all my time should revolve around him. I love, need, and cherish my space. Yes, that is my downfall, but space is freedom in which we all need. That is another reason Im called mean....Because I like to be alone....Problem with this is that I'm very misunderstood when I stay I need my space. This time alone allows me think about certain situations and why the hell you got me fucked up and heated. Im not perfect and shouldn't expect the dude Im with to be perfect, but its so damn hard! I just want someone thats is willing to help me, instead of fucking arguing with me all the time...That doesnt sound so hard right?

On another note Im so proud of myself, because of the fact that I was able to tell my mom something I didn't want to for the longest. When I was a little girl I thought nothing of it, but now that Im older the situation is really bothering me. I just hate that other little girls have probably been in the same situation and were too afraid to tell someone close to them. So Im getting counseling, because Im a G and ready to move on from my demons.